Haven’t written any travel articles for almost a month -and for that I sincerely apologize-, I don’t know what suddenly occured to me, after I was extremely enthusiastic and so into travel blogging, I suddenly stopped completely. Maybe because I felt that I am not in control of my time, due to the fact that my one and only goal for now is weight loss. I even don’t know what has driven me to reach the conclusion that NOW -at this very moment- I have to lose weight and be fit. I have been trying for so many years, for 15 years, since I was ten in fact, to lose weight, but everytime I followed a diet then got bored, started exercising, lost a couple of kilograms and then decided that I now look good, I don’t need to lose any more weight, then I start gaining the kilograms that I have lost in the first place, to return to point zero. Until I decided end of August 2012 that I have to make an extreme makeover before I turn 26, although I have made that decision so many times, but this time was different, it felt so real and so attainable. I have tortured my personal trainer by me being depressed all the time, hopeless to be fit or in shape.
I really have no idea what triggered this goal inside me, maybe because by then I had plans to spend a Ski trip in Switzerland and I thought that being fit will allow me to master skiing easily, and to do fun activities requiring high levels of fitness, I also had plans to go shopping in Prague in Christmas time, so I wanted to buy new clothes size medium and small instead of large & x-large. Maybe the decision was taken after I have spent 3 months in Switzerland and fell in love with traveling and doing adventures more, maybe because I felt that it is about time to become fit in order to be able to do all sorts of activities without having fitness or weight restrictions, I don’t know, I always wonder what triggered me. Truth to be said, I am overwhelmed that this time I’m very serious about my weight loss plans, I’m actually losing weight and fats, I’m becoming stronger and much more fit, from zero running capabilities to a 20 minutes jog that could go longer if I want, my size dropped from large and x-large to medium and rarely small, I easily find pants that fit, I do nothing but worrying about becoming fit, in shape and having a role model -who is Bar Refaeli if you insist to know :)-, I feel terribly guilty when I miss a day at the gym, I 24/7 read about drinks and foods that increase metabolism, about how my lifestyle should be in terms of nutrition and exercising, I keep convincing everyone around me whether fit or overweight to make exercising and following a healthy diet a lifestyle, I’m always concerned to keep myself in a good mood to avoid the production of cortisol in my system, it has become an obsession, I have no time to think about anything else.
This is how my lifestyle has become:
– Sunday-Wednesday: work, lunch, chilling at home for a couple of hours, gym for 2 hours, prepare food for the next day, shower then sleep.
– Thursday-Friday: my recovery days, Friday I head to the gym to do the necessary measurements, then start eating like a PIG, it is my FREE day (wouhouuu) → I usually meet up with my friends or spend sometime with my folks.
– Saturday: I go out then go to the gym or vice-versa or I stay home sleeping all day and go to the gym at some point.
As you see my schedule is fully booked. My friends & family have started hating me, they now understand how dieting and exercising is a TOP priority to me, and that I could skip anything to reach my goal. The other day my best friend told me: “I really want to go out with you, without you telling me I really have to run as I have a class or a session to attend at the gym”.
I also have been trying to arrange a trip with my friends for more than 3 months, but since nothing is put into action, the very thought of travel brings tears to my eyes, my parents are not allowing me to travel alone and I don’t feel like it either, so thinking about traveling, reading or writing about it is TRULY annoying me nowadays, it is a burden, needless to say that my time and my mind are going in a completely different direction, but I cannot deny that although it is a different direction, it will certainly serve me in future travels, which I am quite sure that will have a totally different dimension, I will be able to go on hiking and trekking trips, I will FINALLY be able to climb small mountains like Kilimanjaro in Tanzania-Kenya and Toubkal in Morocco, I might apply for a course at NOLS, or find a job at National Geographic. I believe that only two things will get me back on the travel blogging track:
1. Becoming strong, fit, in shape, capable of doing all sorts of activities without any restrictions.
2. Being part of a mind blowing trip somewhere EXOTIC where I have never been and where I could test my newly acquired fitness level.
I know that if I see this difference while hiking, trekking, cycling or doing any activity requiring a good fitness level, it will lift my spirit up high to the sky and I’ll be back on track.
Wish me luck and do not give up because IMPOSSIBLE is NOTHING 😉